Sunday, November 26, 2006

No NoNsEnCe kInDa gAl!

HMmmmMmMM..... You know the only thing that annoys me about blogs is the public exposure it attracts whilst not being one to gossip i do tend to be very opinionated....inwardly opinionated though, ive read some things on other peoples blogs thats have made me kind of wonder whether or not they realise how stupid they are being, i'll give you an example...i have to becareful here all i'll give away what people i'm talking about....nah i wont it just makes me mad is all, hey DaMiEn lEiTh won Australian Idol yeah yeah good for him but i was hoping Jess would she's so pure and transparent you can tell she'll get a record deal anyways, they all do! Church was good tonight i like Valeries style of preaching its like sitting through an alcoholics anonymous meeting (dont ask why) she's great very cutting edge, gives it to you straight i like that because you dont have time to think. I think people need to be given things straight, no tip toeing around the issue just tell them how it is, these days especially, i read somewhere about people who grew up in the church becoming all self righteouss and independent saying oh we were so sheltered, now we can really live and experiment and broaden are thinking and im thinking you poor thing, you should of given up your position to those people in countries like China who get maimed and killed for attending church illegally, people who appreciate being able to go to church, peoples ignorance just amazes me sometimes, they think they are really living because they have their own boundries their own freedom, with no sense of purpose blatently disregarding and turning their backs on all that they have learnt.....Amazing

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Sunday, November 19, 2006

Anybody who told you to be yourself simply couldn't have given you worse advice...


Really sometimes all i want to do is stand on something high and relatively safe and scream at everyone, you know how some people are just totally and utterly rude, they disregard your feelings and make you feel really stupid. You know what word i despise? CUSTOMERS everytime i say it i just spit it out hissing and yuk and yeah ewwww i used to like people im having second and third thoughts about them now, its not just at work its everywhere, you go out of your way to do things for people, to compliment them, you go over and above your normal duties for people who just dont give a toss, couldnt care less even if you just jumped out infront of a bus for them nah nothing they just find something else to complain about. Its funny though when people ask why do you stuff for them then if they dont care i say i really dont know its a profound sense of obligation you see, its really hard being a christian sometimes, you find yourself putting up with things and doing things and not really knowing why you just feel you have to, no i wouldnt say have to actually i dont know what to say to questions like that, its like cleaning your room without being asked you know, you know your parents will be pleased with you i guess its like that with Jesus.....

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These childhood memories - I have them often, but can usually keep them under control with the use of drugs.

Hmmmmmmmmmm What to say .......... I found my old diary yesterday, it was a weird feeling though when i started reading it i found myself thinking "tis not mine, tis the work of the devil" no no not really i didnt think that but it was an unrecognisable unfamiliar feeling like the events that were written in them had been experienced by someone other then me , i could'nt remember most of them but like seriously why would you want to remember what you ate for dinner on the something of the something ......beats me.
Maybe i should tell you about a secret letter ooooooo son yeah thats rufus, i can start a desperate llamawives program and this is how it will begin, the title "ThE LeTtEr" first scene, She cant sleep , restless nights hound her, there is an urgency heavy and burdensome, she has someone on her mind, she cant forgive herself for judging, she needs to write her feelings down on paper, she spends weeks perfecting the paragraphs the content and the context, hoping not to agitate of offend, she reads it over and over again pretending she is the other person receiving it for the first time. After much thought she seals it, says a few words and ..........leaves it under her frickin bed gees i should really post that......any way will the person receiving it forgive and forget or will bitterness and rage prevail stay tuned for next weeks episode....... Pretty good huh, no sugar coating my situation lol it is true im the one writing the letter ill have to keep you posted with the outcome

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